Never Say Goodbye

*grabs new box of tissues* Okay *takes a deep breath* Twilight-Headed is coming to an end because, to quote Alice, "It's time." *shakes head, confused* Wait?! Did I just freaking quote Alice? WTH?! *inhales Jasper's calm* Okay, let's try this another way... *tries in vain to blink away tears that fall in a steady stream from my eyes, types* For various reasons we as a group have voted to end the blog today, on Christmas Eve, a la Seinfeld... before we jump the shark. But this is not goodbye:

Spank is NOT leaving the Twi-World, she is here to play stay. Spank remains on Twitter, and The League Mansion has not been abandoned. Those randy wolves from La Push will continue to eat us out of house and home, and, of course, my most favorite vampire (Jasper, duh) shall continue to exude his special brand of calm over me *wicked grin* Also, Spank will be unveiling a new Twilight-related blog in early 2010 that I hope will bring a fresh and fun perspective to the Twi-World. I certainly hope you'll visit me there.

I have grown so much over this past year within this special community of Twi-friends, and I am so incredibly grateful for each of you who have supported this fun venture between four friends who were joined by the love of a "little book" named Twilight. Though Twilight-Headed is ending, these friendships will never EVER end. I truly love you all.

*grabs last tissue out of the box and sings through tears* "Pick up the bags and get in the limousine. Soon we'll be away from here, step on the gas and wipe that tear away... One sweet dream came true today, came true today." *runs from the computer sobbing*




*sniffling* I'm going to miss this, truly. *glaring at Spank's empty tissue box as if it's the stupid box's fault* So, what can I say here? I love The League and have learned so much in this past year. Each one of my sisters-in-crime have brought something very special to my life. It's been an amazing experience to spread my writing wings with their support. *purposefully avoiding the obvious "Wind Beneath My Wings" segue there*

I, too, will still be around in the Twi-world. (Since I'm writing a Twilight FanFic, it'd be kinda hard to just up and leave, wouldn't it? My little FanFic home can be found at http://www.fanfiction.net/~meadowc.) I know that both Rain and Spank are thinking of creating homes for themselves in the blogosphere and I'm planning on bringing my special brand of nonsensical rambling to their doorsteps from time to time. I hope that you all will stick with us as we venture out into new beginnings. I'll remain on Twitter and look forward to the continued conversations with you, our fans. **group fandom hug**

I've said my farewell to this chapter of my life and have cried my tears. Life is about growing and changing, and I can't wait to see what 2010 has in store for us all. *looking around at the girls* We're gonna make it after all, girls. Wanna join me in a Mary-Tyler-Moore-Esque hat toss? Because if you don't, I'm gonna start to sob, and that'll kinda take away from the "Be strong, we're moving on, this is a good thing" message I had above. *humming the Mary Tyler Moore show theme and only missing a few notes because of sniffles*




I'll do you one better than a hat toss: *tosses @Little_Edward in the air once again for old time's sake*







*tears streaming down my face* I can't even begin to say how much these girls mean to me. Never before have I had so much fun while "working." For me, Twilight-Headed is more than just a blog we wrote. It's a sisterhood, a circle of friends, and for that, I am oh so very grateful. Even though I was late to the party, I've been 'talking' with my sisters here for a year now, and I know there is no way that will end.

One thing I will miss terribly is the hilarious and heartfelt comments from you all, our readers. You welcomed me so warmly when I joined Twilight Headed, and I love hearing your feedback - both here at the blog and on twitter. We honestly could not have asked for a better readership, and I thank you all. I will miss you *sobs* but I hope I'll still see you all on twitter, because I'm not leaving either.

I've also decided to pour my energy into my own blog. I haven't completely figured it out, but since I spend untold amounts of money on books (mostly young adult fiction), I thought it might be fun to have a place to talk about those books as well as the movies that come from them. So, yeah, Twilight will be a recurring topic, of course.

And, before I end up in the fetal position on the floor, I'd like to say thank you to Spank, Ginger & Meadow. For asking me to be a part of this amazing blog (because Meadow, I know you had some say in that even though you were technically retired at that point) and for helping me to find my way. I've learned so much about myself over the past months, and I owe so much of that to you three. I love you - each and every one of you. *ugly-crying deep breath* Smooches my friends.




*crying so hard I'm snotting* It has been an amazing year at Twilight-Headed, and in many ways I'm sad to see it end. I cherish my League girls and am so happy this has given us all the boost to move on in our own ventures. We've had the BEST readers ever. Seriously. I'm also not going anywhere. I'll still be on Twitter, as Ginger, will still live at The League Mansion with my girls and... I suppose it's time to share that I have my own personal blog. Yep, I've been holding out on you guys. So if you want to keep up with me and my family, you can find me at I Love Purple More Than You. I too am excited to see what 2010 brings us.

Spank, really? You said the wolves will continue to eat us out of house and home? O.o Have you switched sides?




NO, I am NOT switching teams *shudders* but they are like starving strays... I would NEVER date a dog *raises my brow at you* but nevertheless I cannot be cruel to animals.






*sighs and smiles* See? No matter what, some things will never change.

Junior League: The Final Countdown

Name: Twilightish
Power: The power to fangirl on a daily basis in front of perfectly normal people I work with and not feel ashamed of doing it.


Okay, so the Junior League post on Twitrovesies got me thinking about how Twilight has changed me this past year. It has been almost exactly a year that I became a TwiFan and I remember this being one of the first Twi-blogs I started following and I couldn't help but notice that you girls have changed quite a bit too as far as your preferences go.

For example, I remember ALL of you being all about Robert Pattinson and some of you not really liking Kristen Stewart, but now things seem more balanced. Most off you have switched to different teams (Team Jacob, Team Kellan), have ventured deeper into different hobbies (Twitter, Role Play, Fanfiction) and some have even embraced the Rob/Kristen relationship and even Kristen herself (myself included).

I thought it would be fun to go back and think how we all started as TwiFans and how we may or may not have changed. Are you the same TwiFan that you were a year ago?

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sidebra: Should this be the post where we announce that Christmas Eve is our last?

sidebra with red & green tassels: I don't know. Maybe - it might be more honest that way instead of a surprise on Christmas Eve. Thoughts?

sidebra with jingle bells: I think it's the perfect platform for announcing our ending.

sidebra with mistletoe and holly: OMH, I am gonna lose it... I need another beer... *sobs*

sidebra with flashing christmas lights for nipples: **hands Spank another beer** Spank, you're bringing tears to my eyes.

sidebra with two eyes made out of coal: I am really going to f*cking miss these sidebras. I think they should be extended to Twitter.

sidebra with two turtle doves: I agree.

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I am nowhere near the same TwiFan I was a year ago. A year ago I was infatuated with the story and the idea of a love that never seemed real to me. A year ago I was also introverted, shy and anxious in my daily activities with people. A year later and I realized that Twilight "is my life now." By that I mean through this book series and putting myself out there each day for the past year I have found the most amazing friends a girl could ask for - who enrich my life daily with a shared humor and appreciation for the random, quirky side of life. I realized that I deserve a storybook love and found the strength to stand on my own and not settle. And finally through the Twiworld I found that special someone who I always believed either did not exist or surely I did not deserve. ME! In sum, I came into my own this past year and Spank, a character created for The League, ultimately became a slightly exaggerated representation of the person hiding inside of me for so long. And it has felt so good to let her be free.

A year ago I was re-reading the Twilight Saga again and again. What started as an obsession turned into being a part of a community where I have made so many great friends, many of whom I've met in real life, some of which will be lifelong friends. I have had a great time, laughed so much I cried, and loved so much it hurt. I'm proud of what we've done this past year in Twilight-Headed and the connections we've made. I wouldn't trade this year for anything.

A year ago I was thoroughly infatuated with Twilight, although I had no idea why. (Come on, it's a book about chaste vampires. I mean, really? *grin*) Like many many stay-at-home-moms I longed to discuss something other than diapers and formula. When I found the girls who later became the League, I found something other than laughs. I found that you can connect on a very real level with people who don't live anywhere near you. I found that there is a whole world of people out there who appreciate my sense of humor. I found that I was not the only person completely devastated by Stephenie Meyer's refusal to complete Midnight Sun. But, most importantly, I found an outlet for a passion that I'd thought I had lost: writing. So, while I may not be curing cancer or saving the world, I get to create new ones in my head and share them with you. I wouldn't have had the courage to do that without this blog, these girls who stand beside me, and you - our readers. So thank you. It's been one hell of a year.

A year ago I had read the Twilight saga straight through twice, and was starting on my third time. I will not reveal how many times I had seen the movie (because I lost count) but I was also keeping busy googling "Rob Pattinson" and "Twilight" on a daily basis. And then of course, forwarding what I'd found to all my Twi-hard friends. I have changed a lot in the past year in terms of my preferences (Go Team Kemmett!) and my view of Robsten (awwww). But, the thing I love best about Twilight has not changed - the community. I have loved being a part of this crazy Twi-obsessed world. I've made true, amazing friends in the process and I love meeting new friends based on our mutual obsessions. Basically, I've had a blast this past year with all things Twilight. I would not trade it for the world. Well, maybe for a night with both Rob Pattinson and Kellan Lutz...*thinking*... but probably not.

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To all our friends and readers, we request the honor of your presence at Twilight-Headed tomorrow for a very special farewell message from The League.

Captain Charlie

So a while back we were working on a project and I asked the girls to find sexy pictures of some of the twi-cast men. Spank was assigned Charlie, among others *cough* 45 pictures of Jasper *cough*. My eyes popped out of my head, and not in a good way, when Spank sent me this labeled as a "SEXY" pic of Billy Burke.



Spank, I love you to pieces, but that picture of Charlie is the ugliest thing I've ever seen. Was it the Captain Stubing look that got you?

I thought since Charlie loves to fish and Billy is dressed all nautical like it was perfect. Plus, I think he looks very debonair. *coughs*










All I have to say is I'm glad he's not rockin' the Porn 'Stache. Maybe he was about to audition for a Gilligan's Island remake. Or he could've been channeling Don Johnson from Miami Vice. Either way it's not working for him.








He looks like an executive of a porn company. You know, the kind you have to "audition" with him to get hired. I mean, I heard. *shrugs* I don't know.








*laughing* Okay, so this picture is indefensible. I tried. However, I am only masterful at finding amazing photos of Jackson (after all, there ARE so many). But at least I didn't try and sneak in a picture of Taybait's Junior High School picture like Ginger did!

WHAT?! That's not a Junior High School pic. Don't make me find that Jasper pic where his hair is even worse than it is now. *ducking*










Okay, normally I'm all for mocking Ginger's love of Taycob, but I have to admit that pic isn't that bad. Sure, it looks like he should be leaning against a giant "09" as a graduation pic, but it could be worse. It could be a picture of Mike "Marshmallow" Newton.







Those boots are made for... oh wait. Nevermind.

Book Jacob vs. Movie Jacob

Source: twilightfansite.net




I'd like to discuss Jacob's character WITHOUT getting all sidetracked by his ridiculously well-chiseled abs. *looks pointedly at Ginger*

Ahem...So, in the books, I pretty much detested Jacob. I never once felt sorry for him, or felt like he had been used. I cursed him repeatedly while reading and could not understand why anyone was Team Jacob, or how Bella could even think about kissing him.

But, Movie Jake? Whole different story. I adored him. He was funny and cute and endearing. I felt awful for him when he tried to turn Bella away after he became a wolf. I felt awful for him when she left (although I was a little mad about the phone call). And, my heart even broke when Bella said, "It's always been him." Truly - this character that I detested made my heart break.

But, don't worry - I'm not switching teams, I'm just amazed at how Taylor's portrayal of Jacob has so intensely changed my view of the character. I still kind of hate Book Jake, but Movie Jake... well, that's different.




What's wrong with ridiculously well-chiseled abs?








The first few times I read the books I loathed the dog. The last time I read it I began to see his point of view and sympathized with him though as it pertains to the two central teams (Edward and Jacob) I am decidedly for the vampire. In New Moon I saw Jacob come to life and I really liked him. If I were a teenager in Forks, Washington I would totally hang out with a guy like Jacob and he would be much more my type than the brooding Edward.




I never quite "got" Jacob the first few times I read the books. I think I disliked him on principle since Charlie seemed to be pushing Bella to him and because (honestly) he wasn't Edward. I have to admit that while most people hated him in Breaking Dawn, I actually welcomed his perspective as a break from Edward's overwhelming self-loathing. Now that I've seen how likable Movie Jacob is, I'm afraid I might actually **shudders** welcome Renesemee's appearance as his chance for a happy ending. *shaking fist in the air* Damn you for being so likable Taylor!!

Sultry Bloody Sunday: Hot Dog!

Some of you have been asking for a wolf pack video for our Sultry Bloody Sunday series. In the giving spirit of the holiday, I've made one for you all to enjoy. Happy Christmas to the dog lovers! And if you complain that it's too heavy on Alex Meraz, I will first, call you crazy because he is f*ckhawt, and second, remake the video and include this "wolf pack"









how is it that I'm a cat person but I prefer the [New Moon] wolf pack? Oh right. Cause they're hot.







I will not admit to thoroughly enjoying that. I will also not admit that I panted like a bitch in heat nor will I admit that I am really very hungry right now. In fact, I will watch it again to prove that it did nothing for me.

Storytime With Meadow: Holiday Briefs

Hello readers! I'm sure that you are all terribly busy with holiday parties and present wrapping. I think it's important, no matter how hectic things are, to remember one of the true highlights of the season: drunken debauchery at the company Christmas party.

The fabulous spanglemaker9 was inspired by some Twitter fun and decided that her idea was too good to keep to herself. I'm very very glad that she decided to share.

Bella is a serious, professional, happily single lawyer. She has no idea why she should waste her time going to the company Christmas party. Will there be someone there who can convince her otherwise? (Psst... The answer is yes. So go read.) *wink*

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5588288/1/Holiday_Briefs

Kellan Klein

Girls, one of my dreams has just come true. No, not world peace. I get to see Kellan Lutz in his underwear!! Squeeeee!! Okay, so remember Mark Wahlberg back in the day when he was Marky Mark - in those terribly sexy Calvin Klein ads? If you're too young to remember... take a look. *whispers* It's worth it...




Well, apparently Kellan Lutz has been signed as the next underwear model for Calvin Klein! The new ad campaign will be similar to the Marky Mark one, which means I will get to see more pictures like this...





*thinking* Do you think they'll put Kellan in his Calvins blown up on the sides of buildings, like they did with Marky Mark? Hmmmm....*thud*




Rain, I'm so happy for you! *wonders if Taycob will do an underwear ad after he turns 18*







There will be an increase of the car accidents in Times Square when all the female drivers (and a handful of male ones) look up and see Kellan Lutz in his skivvies.






Oh Spank, that's a good point. I could encounter a billboard or something while driving. I need to be prepared. *runs off to pack extra panties in my car*






Just a handful of male drivers, Spank? Have you ever been to New York? The only way he'd get a bigger response is if he showed up naked in Key West.